18 Days and Counting...

That's right little one! Only 18 days and we will know if you are a little boy or a little girl! I have to tell you my first priority is that you are 100% healthy and happy!! That is all I truly want! When I first found out we were pregnant my first thought was I want a little girl! Not sure why, other than there are way cuter clothes for little girls and well..I am one! I would know what to do with a little girl (I think)! I also thought if we had a little boy next maybe they would be closer since the girl was older. Your father on the other hand has wanted you to be a boy from the first second. He is very confident that you are a little boy! He says you will be strong and "loco" like him! Your father was a very rambunctious little boy from what your abuelita tells me! He was very accident prone and was always going 120 mph! He never wanted to be inside he loved to run around and climb trees and he loved anything dangerous! He thinks you will be just like him! Well, I have news for him! You can be strong and "loca" even if you are a girl! The more and more I see your father desire a little boy I long to give him just that! I want him to be so happy! However, if you are a little girl, I know (and anyone who knows your daddy knows) that you will have your daddy wrapped around your finger the instant you come into this world! Either way, boy or girl, we are excited! It is so strange to think of all the dreams we have for you already and yet you are only 4.5 inches and 3.5 tiny ounces! We can only imagine the strong christian person you will come to be. We want only the best for you and want to do our best in raising you! Can you believe that you are already 16 weeks! I can't! We have been doing a lot of research on different factors of pregnancy, childbearth and child rearing. Everything from vaccines to ultrasounds and delayed cord cutting. We want to know everything about everything so we can make the best decisions for you. You are so amazing and only get more amazing every second of every day. I never want you to forget how incredibly miraculous your life is. YOU are born for a reason my child, and you will be great. You will do great things and you will change lives. You are born with purpose and you will always be loved. NO MATTER WHAT! Even as a tiny little apple inside me you are changing my life! You effect my every decision, my every thought and my every emotion. I want nothing more than to watch you experience life.
        Sometimes when I am at home (waiting for your daddy to get home from work) I start to think about you being here and I get scared. I am scared to mess up or make a mistake or teach you something wrong. I want you to be the best person you can and I want to only help you in that task. My short comings and my own insecurities creap into my head and I hope that God helps me to raise you with integrity and spirit and wisdom. I'm very scared sometimes that I won't know what to do. We are very lucky though! You have an amazing grandma and grandpa to look up to and lots of great aunts and uncles who want nothing more than to see you succeed as well! Your Uncle Chris has been helping to pick out names. He likes the name Donte! Don't worry we will not name you Donte! Im not sure if Uncle Chris is kidding or not but we will let him think a little more. He is excited to know if you are gonna be his neice or nephew as well! You will like him he is that crazy uncle that will take you to ball games or Carowinds and always be there to talk to!
          We went to the doctor for our 16 week check up last week. Your daddy recorded your little heartbeat or as he calls it your "corazonito." Daddy won't ever admit it but I saw little tears in his eyes :) The nurse said you were "perfect" Your hearbeat was a strong 150 and everytime I hear your sweet little beat my eyes fill up with tears of joy. I can't believe you are inside me and growing. I can't wait to see what you become. I am trying desperately to cherish every moment of you being so close to me. However, it's hard not to look forward to what is to come. Thank you for everything you are and everything you will be. Please continue to grow strong and healthy. I am praying for you everyday as are lots of other people who love you so much! You are and always will be my heart, my life...my child.